okay i just went t e toilet. my brown word was tearing e shit outa my anus. fucking hard please. i cld still feel e burning sensation. & im hving this really bad, chronic headache nw. & my left eye's tearing as im typing cuz it hurts, hardcore. it cld b my contacts. no, it must b my contacts. hehe met alia, yana, eel, amanda, siva & etc ytd. i was SO, downright wild & happy when i saw 'em. i felt i was let loose for a while. we screamed, we hugged, we laughed, then we fell t the ground. we were crazy. i miss 'em so much. really. yes it may seem stupid t others. i get a lot of tht. thts wht shawn thinks too. he witnessed it first-hand. but i care a damn when im happy. then yana & i kissed. it felt so good. actually i was reading shanghai baby on e bus, talking abt two sensitive women kissing each other & all. haha honestly it's not a happenstance. i felt a gush of adrenalin rush when i pucker girls up. i just felt alive at tht moment. but im no gaychick. hehe mayb wtching movies w 'em tmr.